Today was the day of our tech run. I went into the lesson with an excited attitude as I was excited to finally do a full run in costume in the space, and finally using the blood packs that we had been miming for weeks.
Unfortunately, the run did not go as I had imagined it to. It went terribly. There was a real lack of energy, which held the piece back a lot and stopping it going well. I don't know why this has happened as we were all ready and confident in our piece at our last rehearsal. When I was performing, I found myself being unhappy with my line delivery and with my attitude that I developed in the lesson.
The blood packs were very hard to use. We were told that we had to squeeze them before slamming them in to each other, which was actually harder than I thought. As I am the first person to kill someone, I was the first person to fail at the blood packs. The blood pack sat in my hand with the corners outside of my palm so when I went to squeeze the pack, the blood squirted sidewards and not directly onto Jamilah. They proved to be hard for most people as there were a few times, Esther killing Sybil is a good example, where the pack didn't burst so they had to improvise while they were trying to get it to burst. Ben said that we would either have TTA show us how to properly do it or he would figure out an alternate way to use the blood (He suggested cutting the blood however no one agreed to this!)
There was a moment that I was particularly disappointed with myself in, which was after Jamilah runs in a panic to each side of the stage and we all begin to do a slow motion hack-type movement. Although this should not be an excuse, I was very tired in this movement so I was not committing to it fully; while doing the movement, I sat down to do it as I had no energy for it (Ben was not happy with me at this point!!!).
I think that this negative and tiresome energy was contagious as, throughout the play, everyone, including myself, were slacking, which angered Ben.
Notes From Ben
After cleaning up and getting changed, Ben went on to give us notes. Due to how badly the tech went, they were mostly negative notes.
He said it was okay to be appalling now so that we can get the bad run out of the way and learn more form it so we can take it on to Thursday and be better! He said that we need to act more and we can be brilliant. We need to commit to a whole new level of committing for this new, large space for performing. Although most of us 'forgot how to act', Amber, Kit, Izzy and Hannah all turned up and made their characters larger as they used the space as an advantage to launch their characters further. I feel as if I need to learn from them how I can do a similar thing so that I can make my characters and my presence in general better. He said that Amber and Kit physically improved a lot. Also, we weren't sharing to the audience well enough as we were mostly acting to ourselves therefore we need to learn to be more open.
He then went on to giving me feedback about my lines. There are two lines that I keep fumbling over that hew said it is like I have now 'learnt the pattern of fumbling on'. Throughout the rehearsal process, I have really noticed this as I keep getting confused over' 'That so the shadows be not unappeased/ nor so we disturbed with prodigies on earth'. I need to learn these two lines desperately since after I get past them, I feel a lot more relaxed with the rest of the play as I feel as if I know my lines for the rest of the play.
The last biggest point that I took from that lesson was that we were all half-doing things. He said 'If you're going to do something, DO IT' don't half-do it. He pointed out that Hannah and Samara, when they hold Delainey back were both not fully committed to it so they didn't look as if there was a sense of urgency. For next time, I need to ensure that my actions are more committed so there is more of a sense of need.
The blood packs were very hard to use. We were told that we had to squeeze them before slamming them in to each other, which was actually harder than I thought. As I am the first person to kill someone, I was the first person to fail at the blood packs. The blood pack sat in my hand with the corners outside of my palm so when I went to squeeze the pack, the blood squirted sidewards and not directly onto Jamilah. They proved to be hard for most people as there were a few times, Esther killing Sybil is a good example, where the pack didn't burst so they had to improvise while they were trying to get it to burst. Ben said that we would either have TTA show us how to properly do it or he would figure out an alternate way to use the blood (He suggested cutting the blood however no one agreed to this!)
There was a moment that I was particularly disappointed with myself in, which was after Jamilah runs in a panic to each side of the stage and we all begin to do a slow motion hack-type movement. Although this should not be an excuse, I was very tired in this movement so I was not committing to it fully; while doing the movement, I sat down to do it as I had no energy for it (Ben was not happy with me at this point!!!).
I think that this negative and tiresome energy was contagious as, throughout the play, everyone, including myself, were slacking, which angered Ben.
Notes From Ben
After cleaning up and getting changed, Ben went on to give us notes. Due to how badly the tech went, they were mostly negative notes.
He said it was okay to be appalling now so that we can get the bad run out of the way and learn more form it so we can take it on to Thursday and be better! He said that we need to act more and we can be brilliant. We need to commit to a whole new level of committing for this new, large space for performing. Although most of us 'forgot how to act', Amber, Kit, Izzy and Hannah all turned up and made their characters larger as they used the space as an advantage to launch their characters further. I feel as if I need to learn from them how I can do a similar thing so that I can make my characters and my presence in general better. He said that Amber and Kit physically improved a lot. Also, we weren't sharing to the audience well enough as we were mostly acting to ourselves therefore we need to learn to be more open.
He then went on to giving me feedback about my lines. There are two lines that I keep fumbling over that hew said it is like I have now 'learnt the pattern of fumbling on'. Throughout the rehearsal process, I have really noticed this as I keep getting confused over' 'That so the shadows be not unappeased/ nor so we disturbed with prodigies on earth'. I need to learn these two lines desperately since after I get past them, I feel a lot more relaxed with the rest of the play as I feel as if I know my lines for the rest of the play.
The last biggest point that I took from that lesson was that we were all half-doing things. He said 'If you're going to do something, DO IT' don't half-do it. He pointed out that Hannah and Samara, when they hold Delainey back were both not fully committed to it so they didn't look as if there was a sense of urgency. For next time, I need to ensure that my actions are more committed so there is more of a sense of need.
Overall, I am really disappointed in myself this lesson and I need to make sure I am more on it tomorrow for rehearsals.
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